Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Teen depressed over job/personal issues?
Alright everyone, well first off i'd like to say good evening to all of you. I am a 19 year old male, who just recently graduated and I am in need of dire help. About a year ago, I started to notice I was depressed, over my ex girlfriend of 2 years, and I have OCD to a point which contributed - basically, it's no one thing, its the addition of something new every now and again. I have had a total of 3 jobs in my life, a supermarket (I walked out after a year) a bakery (I walked out after 3 months) and now I am employed at Dunkin Donuts a week already and absolutely can't stand it, I mix and fry the cake doughnuts, and yeast. I start at 3am everyday until about 9am, and it's starting to wear on me.It is also a dirty job (constantly smelling like a deep frier, and getting burnt which leads to scars) I dont want to be scarred for $8 an hour. My mom always says i'm just like my father who can't hold a job, so & so. I understand her, but she doesnt understand that my lack of motivation comes from being depressed. I am not one of those people who are open about being depressed, I don't show much emotion but what I mostly show due to it is anger, I get so angry at my mom because of it. I also *think* to have what is called Mollus Contagiosum, which is a skin disease. I think I have gotten it from I recieved from this girl. This is something else that has been wearing on me so badly I can't sleep at night due to stress headaches. The culmination of all these things has me to the point I just dont want to live life anymore, and 'check out' if you know what I mean. Now I am not suicidal, it's a stupid decision in my opinion, but I just cannot find a way out of all this stress that is giving me hell. No one understands that a job is almost impossible to hold when you have as many personal issues going on in life that I do. Can ANYBODY offer some insight to me? maybe it will help me land on a decision of what direction to go with all this. I honestly am not sure what to do with this job, I am truly unhappy with this job at Dunkin, I hate frying because its somewhat dangerous. I just don't want to be called a failure. - Davey.
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