Thursday, January 12, 2012

Induction tomorrow and bieng stressed to breaking point!!!39wks.need encouraging words!?

I am due for an induction tomorrow so long as the hospital has room and doesnt cancel on me. anyways, this is supose to be a time where my friends and family support me and comfort me and keep me relaxed. but instead everyone is driving me insane. to the point I am now freaking out about tomorrow and dreading it. I have my bf *babys dad* who wont stop talking long enough to ever let me say a dang word! his mom who keeps telling me what SHE thinks i need to have done before tomorrow but hasnt been home at all to even realize ive already done everything! *she said shes freaking out more than me at this point* which doesnt help me any!! then you got the bf's dad who is blabbing all over town to everyone he knows about my apt. tomorrow to be induced. making people i cant stand to talk to, call me! to ask a million ?s when they themselves cant stand me or want nothing to do with me. they are bieng super nosey and have no business asking things they are asking. my bf whos put off getting HIMSELF prepared and ready for this BIG event and hasnt even bothered to get a bag ready to go for himself. my son who i feel bad for because he is now getting very clingy cuz he knows im gonna be gone a couple days even though he'll be there for most of it.. the constant false labor pains are really torturing me here. all the extra chores im having to do instead of REST when my body is killing over in pain. CUZ NO ONES BEEN HOME EXCEPT ME to do them.. and im expected to. * we live with inlaws at this time we cant afford on our own. not to mention neither can they, they just lost this house and we have 2 weeks to find a new place for all of us. which is stressing me out because i should be thinking about how to cope.relax. breathe. and just have this baby! but no one seems to understand they are unloading all of THEIR OWN stress out on me. ALL i want right now, is quietness. support.calmness from everyone here.to relax. and a HUG. i need a hug... is that too much to ask for?? i guess so.. because now im panicking about tomorrow. *my 1st born was an emergency induction. so i know the pain and whats going to happen* and thats even worse.....

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